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Weekly Update #6

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It’s been a while since I last gave an update on medication. I’ve struggled to write anything, maybe writers block, I dunno.

Anyway, I’m still on 150mg extended release. I decided to take an extra few weeks to let me body adjust because I was feeling a little out of control. This was the right choice because I’m feeling more settled again. I’m ready to try and reduce again in a few weeks time.

I back to normal eating habits, although I’m finding it somewhat easier to eat better foods for me like more veggies and fruits. I’m also trying to aim for my 5 a day and 2 litres of water. I think what is important is to keep reminding myself that its okay if I don’t hit those targets as long as I can honestly say I tried. (Like, really honestly say). And I am still reducing portion size.

Over the past couple of weeks I have really been hurting and haven’t bee able to do any Pilates. I’m having to save energy and pain tolerance for things like showering and cooking dinner, both of which have been a struggle over the last 2 weeks. However, I am not putting this down to medication changes. I think it’s a combination of fibro flares and weather.

I’ve noticed a change in my sleep patterns and mind fogginess. The mind fog is clearing and rapidly. I don’t usually feel much of that any more, just on days where my fibro is bad. But, I am struggling to sleep at night. I’m waking up a lot and it doesn’t really feel like I ever get a deep enough sleep. Could this be because I’m also struggling to fall asleep?

I can’t thank mediation and YouTube enough. Those are the only thinks that are helping me sleep even though I am also trying to stick to a regular schedule. I’d recommend anything by Michael Sealey.

I think I’ve rambled on enough now.

Kim x

 

 

 

Dream #1

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Last night I had a really weird dream. One of those that wake you up and keep you awake. It only lets you lightly doze for the rest of the night and wakes you up every 30 minutes.

It wasn’t anything particular traumatic but something I felt was giving me a meaning. I feel these dreams are just another side effect from my meds. Thinking back, nothing they was in my dream was anything to do with what I was watching on TV it talking about with anyone.

What I remember was seeing a friend who was pregnant. She was about ready to pop and went to the hospital to find out the baby was going to be still born. I remember having a Lego set to build, and going to a shop/cafe like place. They had a secret room that they would let me in. It was very white and clean.

This room somehow became white walls of a cave/room. Hubby and my friend was there and the wind was really blowing outside. There was a storm and, even though we were inside, we all got struck be lightening. I was first and I starting having a fit from it. I tried to tell the others but I couldn’t speak.

I feel like there are certain parts of my dream that stood out to me and were giving me a hidden meaning.

When dreaming about stillborns, it’s often linked to the end of something. Maybe trust in someone. It can also be linked to disruptions, failures or the loss of the feeling of achievement, like when you are trying to finish a project but loose it close to the end.

The second thing that stood out was the lightening strike. Often it’s paired with intuition and inspiration, but can be linked to raw energy with both the power to generate and be destructive.

The last thing was the fit/seizure. That only happens after I’d been struck by lightening. I could talk it warm people. This is usually representing a loss of control. The thing is, I could have sworn t was real. I would have put money on that I’d had some kind of seizure in real life. It scared me.

Maybe something will happen that I have no control over, something I lose and the dream was a warning. Maybe my brain was working overtime from the week. It just feels odd because last night was the first time I’d meditated in a week.

Or maybe it’s all in my head?

Kim x